A sense of purpose

Why do you do what you do? Why games?

I can’t stress enough how important this is to know.

Both for your own sanity, to have a form of direction and idea of what progress is.

Also for everyone else, for people, friends and family to understand  what and why you are doing what you are.

It’s even important for your audience, as no matter what you create, it will be most understood through a shared perspectives with it’s creator.

“I do it as practice”

Improved ability. I want to be better. At what?

  • Programming
  • Artistery
  • Musics
  • Communication
  • Story telling
  • Etc.

“I do it as Exploration, curiosity, novelty and learning”

  • Simulation beyond thought experiment – What would happen if …?
  • Generating things beyond imagination and expectation.
  • Finding and sharing that which no one have thought of.

 

This seems like explanations … but there still a bunch of unanswered questions:

Where are you going with this and why do you bother?

Making games is a means to to create and share meaning, experience and knowledge.

So what meaning, experience or knowledge do you seek? What of it do you not seek?

  • What makes you inspired?
  • What brings you a smile?
  • What leaves you in a state of awe?
  • What do you find beautiful?
  • What do you enjoy doing?

What does all these things have in common and where do you stand in this?

  • What’s your philosophy?
  • What are your values?
  • What character embodies those values, who are you?
  • What do you seek out in life?
  • What are your goals?

 

With a clear view on what you try to accomplish you get the ability to compare. You see the path you are on right now with your project but also the path you are on with your life. A visible direction on your moral or philosophical compass.

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Finding a sustainable way to work alone

I’ve been struggling with starting.

I’m the master of exploring new things and abandoning projects.

But now I need to start looking back at everything I’ve been going through.

It seems to me I’ve had no clear direction, but mainly explored what interested me.

Simultaneously I don’t believe in clear direction. If I knew the end result and exactly what would happen then why bother recreating something I already have?

I’ve spent so much of my time looking up things to help me progress. So much as to leave me without doing much else. So much to also leave me without implementing what I’ve learned practically into my life.

Was that a good or a bad choice? I don’t know. All I know is that I have a bunch of thoughts and beliefs of how I should go forward. So I’ll try to make something with what I’ve got.

Only time will tell if it holds to reality.

Here’s a list of a few things I’ve struggled with in the past, which I intend to plan for and work with:

  • Dealing with anxiety
  • Dealing with fears
  • Dealing with health
  • Dealing with boredom
  • Dealing with motivation
  • Dealing with discipline Systematically.
  • Dealing with doubt in ability.
  • Just doing things and being fine with mediocre results.

 

This will do for now! I’ll expand this into multiple posts that eventually can be a guideline for indie game developers and other lonely workers.