Why do you do what you do? Why games?
I can’t stress enough how important this is to know.
Both for your own sanity, to have a form of direction and idea of what progress is.
Also for everyone else, for people, friends and family to understand what and why you are doing what you are.
It’s even important for your audience, as no matter what you create, it will be most understood through a shared perspectives with it’s creator.
“I do it as practice”
Improved ability. I want to be better. At what?
- Story telling
“I do it as Exploration, curiosity, novelty and learning”
- Simulation beyond thought experiment – What would happen if …?
- Generating things beyond imagination and expectation.
- Finding and sharing that which no one have thought of.
This seems like explanations … but there still a bunch of unanswered questions:
Where are you going with this and why do you bother?
Making games is a means to to create and share meaning, experience and knowledge.
So what meaning, experience or knowledge do you seek? What of it do you not seek?
- What makes you inspired?
- What brings you a smile?
- What leaves you in a state of awe?
- What do you find beautiful?
- What do you enjoy doing?
What does all these things have in common and where do you stand in this?
- What’s your philosophy?
- What are your values?
- What character embodies those values, who are you?
- What do you seek out in life?
- What are your goals?
With a clear view on what you try to accomplish you get the ability to compare. You see the path you are on right now with your project but also the path you are on with your life. A visible direction on your moral or philosophical compass.
I’ve been struggling with starting.
I’m the master of exploring new things and abandoning projects.
But now I need to start looking back at everything I’ve been going through.
It seems to me I’ve had no clear direction, but mainly explored what interested me.
Simultaneously I don’t believe in clear direction. If I knew the end result and exactly what would happen then why bother recreating something I already have?
I’ve spent so much of my time looking up things to help me progress. So much as to leave me without doing much else. So much to also leave me without implementing what I’ve learned practically into my life.
Was that a good or a bad choice? I don’t know. All I know is that I have a bunch of thoughts and beliefs of how I should go forward. So I’ll try to make something with what I’ve got.
Only time will tell if it holds to reality.
Here’s a list of a few things I’ve struggled with in the past, which I intend to plan for and work with:
- Dealing with anxiety
- Dealing with fears
- Dealing with health
- Dealing with boredom
- Dealing with motivation
- Dealing with discipline Systematically.
- Dealing with doubt in ability.
- Just doing things and being fine with mediocre results.
This will do for now! I’ll expand this into multiple posts that eventually can be a guideline for indie game developers and other lonely workers.
When asked why, you have to choose a story and a context.
Why did I write this?
- Because I’m frustrated about this word.
- Because I want people to read my blog and understand me better?
- Because neurons in my brain fired in a way that made my fingers dance over my keyboard which caused this blog post to be written.
- Because I was motivated to do so.
- Because it filled my mind and I want to get it out in a clear and understandable way for myself.
- Because I want people to stop using it in unhelpful ways.
- Because I want to communicate better and I want people to understand each other.
The answer is not one. All of the statements might be valid, and yet when we ask why we usually want a definite answer. I can’t give you all reasons without creating an infinite list of these causalities. And to give you a truly accurate answer I must explain all the history of what happened in this world since the start of time and existence itself.
When we ask why we really say: “Tell a convincing story. What made it happen?”
“Give me a satisfying answer”
So any answer to a why question will always be:
- a constructed story
- a simplification of reality
- based on belief
Why would I use why then?
It can be used to make someone reflect and formalize their own reasoning.
It can be used to obtain indications of someone’s perspective.
A Black Box is a system (thing) or process (something that happens) where all you see is:
- Input – The things that affects the black box.
- Output – The things that the black box produces or affects.
This implies two things:
- That you sometimes don’t know what happen within a system, even though you know what effects it produces.
- That you sometimes don’t need to know how something works on the inside to interact with it on a meaningful level.
Whether used with intention or not, a black box symbolizes and represents hidden knowledge and the unmeasured parts of systems. Everything that is unmeasured or uncertain but happens anyways can thus be thought of as a Black Box.
Something that is changing is going through a process
The following are various forms of atomic processes:
Putting an object inside another object or environment where it can not be altered by outside forces. (Usually for later use when needed.)
Putting objects closer to each other or within a specific area
Putting objects further away from each other or divided from one source and put into many other locations.
Put objects according to a pattern.
Connect elements to form a system.
Isolate elements from a system, until it is not the same system.